Too tense?Realli?

I was told by someone that my shoulder always looks tense and that my stress area will go to my shoulder.No wonder my shoulder always aching.And she told me to let go of the stess that i have.And the weird thing is she doesn't even know me.Scary sometimes when u meet this kinda person whom u dun noe but by looking at u, they can analyse u.But yeah if she didnt mention that to me i wont noe that my shoulder is always tense.So im learning to let things go.

I realised that back in poly times, i would religiously blog.I would blog about the daily happenings in my life and believe me it was never a short entry.I would yak and yak and yak.And u noe y?Cos i had a life back then.Haha.School,lepak,frens,loves.And now I seldom blog cos i feel there's nothing to blog about.How i miss the good ol' times.And now sometimes i feel its hard to even converse or write in english seh!!!Sheesh..my brain is lagging and thats bad.Real bad.

Yesterday I was roaming around and yes alone.So I got bored and I called Aim for entertainment.Haha.Cos I noe he will entertained me.He asked where am i and i said somewhere just roaming around.He didnt believe me and kept on asking what are u doin there.And I gotto tell the truth.Sometimes its bad having friends who noe u inside out.Haha.I can never hide things from Tina and Aim.Its like they can read me like an open book.And yes I love them.Haha.Aim said 'sher i thought u r jus irritating real life but u r more irritating on the phone.'LOL.siak aim.But he learnt fast.In the end he irritates the hell out of me.Haha.I miss that botak.He's in camp so i cant have my lepak session with him often.Tho he promised me this friday he'll spent time with me provided i make him tea tarik.Only him appreciates my tea.Haha.

Everytime when the year coming to an end, I will start to think a lot.I will start thinking of wat had happend truout the years.What ive achieved and wat need to be done and not yet done.And I'm stumped.Cos i realised i achieve nothing!!!Sheesh.It's been 2 years that i leave poly and I'm still no where.Ok yes i'll still be patience.'hanya padamu tempat ku mengadu.Pahit ... yg menyiksaku.Aku pecaya tiada yg sia2.Semuakan ada hikmahnya.'haha.sempat selit lagu hikmah.

But I noe I have a plan.Im just waiting for the rite time to get that plan started.But at the same time Im scared.Im scared what if that plan fails?Then wat plan do i have?What if that plan succeeds but i gave up half way?How?I soooo wana be somewhere.I need to get a real job.Takpe kalao ade rezeki pat situ adelah kan.Masing2.Tak org tak kite ye tak?Haha.

Amy had a minor accident.Luckily its minor.She just had a few abrasion on her hands.Ok i feel like i need to learn english all over again.Like seriously.Haha.

The ex is happy in love.But seriously I dun feel any heartache.In fact i find them cute together.Haha.May them be happy always.

No matter what it's still to HIM we turn to.I noe i've been very ignorance and always neglecting my part.Saying sorry wont help.I need to learn.Really learn.Give me strength and faith.Amin.